In early December I noticed I wasn’t feeling at all like myself. I was ignoring chores and, worse, ignoring friends and even some family members. Nothing seemed to interest me and I felt just awful physically. Normally I’m so cheerful I have wondered if there was something wrong with me! I should have recognized the symptoms but, since I was already off-kilter, I didn’t. But I finally figured it out and I’ve started on the chores I’ve neglected for so long! Yesterday I spent part of the day cleaning my desk and computer desk. I’m finally getting back on track!
I have a chronic, severe vitamin D deficiency which causes extreme fatigue, pain in my bones, weakness in my muscles, and limits my ability to think clearly and concentrate. It also seems to mess with my blood pressure. Since I have Polycythemia Vera anything that increases my blood pressure isn’t great. My doctor and I both forgot to renew my prescription for my vitamin D! I’ve gone since late summer without it and boy, did it make a difference, not only in how I felt physically, but emotionally.
I hate showing you the pictures of my desk as it was Sunday morning. But, in the interest of full disclosure, here they are. Don’t judge or I’ll come check under all your sofa cushions!
My recipes, which I type out and put in binders, had been tossed all over the desk. The bag with all of my camera equipment was precariously balanced on the edge of the desk. On the computer desk papers, flash drives, and other things made it hard to even move the mouse! Given my usual need to have everything “just so” the condition of these two desks should have tipped me off that I wasn’t just being lazy.
I’m still moving a bit slowly; it will take a while for the vitamin D to affect my pain levels, but I’ve made progress.
Over the course of the week I plan to get the typed recipes into the page protectors. I’m a bit upset since I’ll have to reprint some. Spills that I just wipe off when the paper is in the protectors have stained quite a few of the recipes. I also printed several recipes more than once because, since they were scattered all over I had no idea I’d printed them.
I also have to organize the papers left on my desk by Mr. C and even Pete! And the file cabinets need to be cleared off. I’m sure that most of the papers piled atop the cabinet are mine.
While I was clearing off the long desk I discovered coupons that expired last August, catalogs that I should have thrown out as soon as they came in the door, and craft items that should have been put in my craft box.
Although it really wasn’t all that much work getting back on track so suddenly felt like a lot. My muscles are aching, my bones feel like they’re full of glass, and I’m really, really tired. And I feel great! Sure, my body is complaining but I got a sense of accomplishment and felt real joy just getting a start on the desks! Instead of thinking about how much I still have to do I was doing a little internal jig over what I’d done. I felt like me again!
I can’t stress enough how important it is to recognize when you start to feel different than your normal self. Had I paid attention to my body and mind I could have taken care of this problem back in November or before. And I would have been my usual almost ridiculously cheerful self this winter! So, if you suspect something is wrong please talk to your doctor. Sometimes what seem to be horrible problems can be fixed with a vitamin! Getting back on track is a lot easier when you feel good!